Before going to work, we're fed algorithms and data structures and how they are the bottlenecks that makes wasteful use and here's how to utilize them; only to naively know from hard stories that the actual bottleneck is always from the people, the H-factor, except this time H stands for human.

Insane amount of bureaucracy, paperworks, and how we are missing deadlines so we write shit code that the quick and dirty solutions were never replaced.

Algorithms and data structures therefore are more like helping you utilize the machine economy better, but it doesn't have any meaningful impact on the social aspect of it. That's a hard lesson I had to learn from my two previous job, though now I'm considering starting my own small business just to make a little bit of living enough to survive.

But now my ADHD kicked in and is still lazy and I had so many concerns whether the market validation is great, how to deal with situations if I broke customers stuff, how to gain (and hopefully not regain) trust if any bad things ever happen, what if I want to go vacation and suddenly the server broke and got code zero (the highest level of alert I termed internally, when you had alertmanager flashing everything red, network storage is down, corruption happened) during a trip to Bahamas.

I'm still in the watershed of thinking really to do this or not, but the job market is filled with ghost jobs that are not worth my time either, I'm basically "dead locked" right now and had to make a decision quick.

Either choice is fucked for me, as I started to notice after going to work, despite I got some really interesting ideas in tech, but I'm not a charismatic person so I can't really make those idea to fruition, because no one wants to listen to me and implement it together, so I'm pretty sure it is impossible for me to be a great leader (tech lead probably, but CEO level of leadership and coordinator and manipulate the grand scheme of thing, nah, I pretty much can't do).

Now the problem is, even if I'm pretty sure to get fucked, you should choose the one that inflicts minimum pain to you. So far having my own business seems like a less painful to die and bankrupt, and I'm preparing to sell off some of my stuff to get a last dip of my fortunes and have fun. Will see how it looks. Bankruptcy is nothingburger in this modern society perhaps.

Now you see how the bottlenecks can't even be the code anymore and even goes beyond code, despite having the same core template: I don't even have to code, to repeat the same "quick and dirty" kind of mindset in another domain, in another instance. That's something LLM, heck not even AGI can solve: decision-making based on situations with limited time and resources, and it can be personal or organizational or even structural.

This is very much not going to be solvable by a bunch of lines and statements and expressions, but it really need some time to dig in and compromise. Pick your kool-aid and drink it