Reads like a man who put off searching for a real relationship for too long, but also didn’t develop that part of himself to maintain one. Then a bunch of existentialism blaming anything but himself. Could be compounded by his location, for example, it’s hard to find a wife in Miami ;)

The loneliness could take him to dark places. I’ve been there. I hope he finds someone.

It's an unpleasant world. Hard to write about pleasantly.