As I’ve reached middle age I’ve realized that controlling my suffering keeps me grounded.

The suffering will come out no matter what everyday for me personally no matter how comfortable the day is.

For years now I force it out with intention every day. I push to a discomfort for an hour or more a day usually doing some aerobic activity.

When my body starts failing as I get older I’ll need to explore other options but this is where I am now.

Surprisingly my brain has been rewired over the years to look forward to this controlled suffering and counterintuitively it’s made all of life much more enjoyable.